Month: December 2020

Releasing

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Last night I sat under the moon. It was magical. It was “the cold moon” – the second full moon in Cancer this year. It was the moon of releasing and letting go of that which no longer serves you. Even tonight when I let my dog out, I was in awe of the heavenly body hanging just above my head. Like last night, I used my camera, in hopes of capturing just one small iota of what this beautiful sight stirred up in me.

What you should know is that yesterday, I came across a tape of my first astrological natal chart reading done in August of 2013. The astrologer was Myrna Lamb and she was just simply remarkable. After listening to our session, a whole bunch of thoughts, feeling, emotions, and wonderings came up in my head.

And just like that my brain remember it was the full moon, specifically the moon of releasing. So, at 11:30 pm, with the crisp winter air blowing through my hair, I sat on my deck wrapped in a blanket while my family slept inside and I just stared–and then let go.

I asked the moon for her guidance. I asked her to surround me with white light and to take those things that make me feel dark instead of light. I asked her to bless my cards with positive energy and light. I made commitments to myself–to be more patient with myself, to be more loving of myself, to let go. When I was done, I walked over to my fireplace, laid out my Goddess and Tarot cards and listened to what the universe was telling me. Cathartic…

I haven’t felt this sense of peace in a while. I haven’t paid attention to my spiritual needs and my soul feels that. For me, when I am not connecting with mother earth and the universe, I feel anxious, despondent, and confused. With my sun sign in Capricorn, I am an earth sign and have a tremendous connections with all things earth. With my rising sign in Pisces I am very spiritual and intuitive. My intuition was telling me that I had been neglecting what mother earth and the universe was telling me.

I know for many people all of this–astrology, moon energy, tarot cards, meditation–all seems like hocus pocus, but in all the years that I have searched for answers to the larger questions in life, nothing has evenly remotely answered what I’ve asked.

In any case, if you have not yet seen the moon…go look at her tonight. Technically last night (the 29th) was the official full moon, but she is still just as awesome. Look at her and ask her to take what no longer serves you and ask her to help manifest positive energy and light into your life.

I can hardly wait to witness each full moon that 2021 will bring. I eagerly await her messages. If she leaves me feeling as half as peaceful as I did last night, that is what I call a win.

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Thankful for 2020

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For some reason I had this urge to sit down in my office, fingers to the keyboard and let out all of the floating thoughts that have been making their way through my mind. I don’t need to say that 2020 has been one big ball of suck….this is generally a universal truth. And, I certainly do NOT need to list the reasons why 2020 sucked. My 2020 is no worse or better than yours. We are all in this together, aren’t we?

That, my friends is the human condition. When things are difficult, we must learn to change and adapt in order to survive. If nothing else, 2020 has taught us all that we are capable of adapting.

Yes, it is certainly more difficult for some than others, but overall, the world came together, made changes and adapted. For me, as the year closes, I am not looking to erase this year, nor am I looking to quickly put it behind me. I find that if I live in a constant state of thinking about all that is wrong and negative, I find myself getting into a dark cycle. Instead, as I reflect on 2020, here are some things I am eternally grateful for….

  1. My overall good health. I finally took the time to take care of me. I lost nearly 20 pounds and continue to work towards losing the final 10. I treated my body like it deserved and started to look at myself with the same care and love that I have for others.
  2. I learned SO much. I learned how to play soccer. We, as a family built and grew a vegetable garden. I went clamming, hiked of miles in my local forests, developed a new love for baking, learned how to balance work and “home schooling”
  3. Life slowed down. Yes, sports were canceled. Yes, I had to work from home. Yes, I wasn’t able to go out to eat all of the time. In that, I learned to appreciate what I once took for granted. I had no choice but to slow down and really look at the blessings around me.
  4. I rediscovered my deep connection to mother earth and nature. I get outside at least once a day and look at the earth beneath my feet, the sky above my head, and breathe the air in my lungs with awe. As we, one human race, buckled down, mother nature was able to heal and for that I am most thankful.
  5. I developed deep relationships with friends that have become family. We have been with each other almost daily and without them, I’m not sure I would have weathered the “storm”. We laughed, we cried, we ate, we talked, we danced, we drank, we bonded…. for better or worse this year has connected us in ways I will never forget. My heart is full.
  6. I am in the process of rediscovering and filling my spiritual side. I openly listen to what the universe has in store for me and I am developing my relationship with my God, my Goddess, my spiritual guardians, loved ones that have passed, and the stars. I am listening to my intuition and sentient self.
  7. Finally, I am working towards healing. Healing past hurts. Healing the self hate I’ve carried for 42 years. Healing from losses. Healing from things I don’t always understand. Sometimes, you just have to trust that you are right where you are supposed to be and that the universe has you in the palm of her hand.
  8. Family – near or far, my family has and will always be the lifeblood that runs through my veins. Some I can only see through a computer screen, others I can hug and hold close, but nonetheless they are all, in their own ways, the foundation in which I stand.

2020, instead of thinking what went wrong, I want to thank you for all of these things and many more. You’ve made us stronger and more resilient and certainly, I’ve become even more reflective than I already was.

2020, thank you. xoxo

Just a few of 2020s blessings