This Is What Motherhood Looks Like

This is really what life in my house looks like…..4 loads of laundry that need to be foldedConstruction and home improvements that never seem to end….A scale that just won’t cooperate…Donations that never seem to make it to the donation center…A yard full of leaves that eventually will get raked…Cats that need their litter box cleaned…Sneakers that always seem to live in the middle of the living roomPapers to write, bills to pay, emails to answer…..The only breakfast I can manage in the time I haveAnd a calendar full of kid obligations…But, life also looks like this…..

• Lunch with my sister in-law and nieces
• Early morning snuggles from my babies with a hot coffee in my hand
• Sneaking late night kisses from my hubby.enjoying
• Friday nights with close friends and celebrating special moments in life

No, my life isn’t glamorous or perfect. Most days it’s full of chaos and cursing, but overall I am blessed and balanced.I hope each day to be better than the last and strive for my family to feel loved and safe.This is my life. This is real. This is me…

My Diary

When I write, when you read, it is a peek into my personal life diary.  I write when things are good and I write when things are bad.  I write to use my voice.  I write to hold my self accountable.

Today, I write because I need to tell myself that I every day I make progress being a better me.

Friday, I took a personal day at work and hit the reset button.  I stayed home, did some painting and reflecting.  I was alone with me, myself, and I and some good music.  It was great and I felt refreshed, but each day has its own challenges.

Being 4’7″ has both its obvious positives and challenges, but one that has been a personal challenge for me is obtaining my “ideal” weight.  Honestly, having had 3 kids and being 41 years of age, I probably will never see that weight, but at the very least, I know I am NOT the weight I should be.

This isn’t a pity party, and it isn’t about what I look like, it is about keeping my body healthy and strong so I can live a long, active, and productive life.  On Sunday, I started making small changes–2 protein shakes a day and a well-rounded dinner and LOTS of water.  Of course, I’m Italian and that’s not quite enough, so I have healthy snacks in between–veggies, a piece of cheese, etc.

This morning I was down 2 lbs.   Again, this is just a reminder to myself that along with each challenge comes progress. It was hard not grabbing a quick sandwich from the caf, but I did it.  I drank my shake and then walked on the track for 20 minutes.

No, I can’t drink shakes forever.  I just need to hit reset again.  I need to see a little progress and gain momentum so making healthier choices is second nature.  I need to think a little bit about what serves me so I can be the best me.

Spring is in the air and reminds me that this time of year gives us the chance to be reborn into whatever we manifest.  Today is the next page in my book and I get to write the story.   Me.  My story.